Dropping out of UM to take a semester off. After this is all over, transferring to an online college to finish my last semester. I know that I am so close to finishing, but my mental and physical health mean a lot more to me than taking 17 credits without any focus to be in a classroom and fail along the way. I need to find myself again because I have lost myself in all of this and I can’t bare to stand it any longer.
Some people think that I am running away. I will let them think that. I’m not running away; I’m doing what I should have done a long time ago. It’s been a constant uphill battle and I’m tired of running up that hill. I’m unhappy and I’m doing something about it.
It will be extremely hard to see all of my friends graduate and start their lives, but that will be me soon enough. I forced myself to get caught up when I should have sat back and taken my time. This isn’t me being weak. This is me finally doing something good for myself. After 21 years, I’m finally putting myself first.
